I worry that I cannot get over this mental illness anymore. I mean I have done everything to help it out, everything but get better. I just cannot watch this happen to me whilst I also go about my day in utter mental pain and torture. This has to, HAS TO stop. Or else, I can’t let myself have to deal with the fallout and pain and frightfulness for much longer. I can’t imagine a more mentally unfair life lived. Still heartbroken. And in full view of itself.