I really, truly hope that my family and friends understand just what I have to go through to get to me with the OCD. I only try and get to me and learn and understand everything around me as well as possible. I know what I need to do but it can be extremely difficult even at the best of times. And to only ever have a friend like Matthias say to me that the OCD doesn’t really affect our friendship in any way whatsoever, that he doesn’t see or understand it, will only ever really mean that my mental strength in attempting to get to the real me amidst the more-often-than-not OCD onslaught is quite remarkable, to be perfectly honest. I cannot ever state that particular fact enough. I mean, I’m not looking for that to be one of my biggest characteristics, of course I’m not! But, then again, I have no real choice on the matter.