It’s like… you’re doing all the right things but it’s still begging to just… pull you in, the OCD. It’s no joke, absolutely. But it’s also, and this is far easier to say when you’re somewhat on the other side of it, something that does give you a seriously strong sense for things and how to handle them. Bit by bit. But, then, you’re not supposed to be handling everything as you go. But that’s gonna have been fairly engrained after a long, long time of it playing with your brain, your mind. So, yeah, you take it with you, you live with it and… just take all the time in the world to reel it in, your mind, and relax. It’s difficult to get to the real you and by that I simply mean not being pummelled by a chemical imbalance. I’m certain there are many, many people who’ve fallen away owing to it, and I do feel for them because I, of course, can feel it. What they go through. But, yeah, maybe my mind wouldn’t have been a perfectly thinking device even minus the OCD. And neither would I want it to be. You work with what you got. You let it all go as you should, you keep on keeping on, and you certainly let yourself know that it is that thing, a serious mental disorder. An extraordinary glitch of the brain. But that’s known. You know it, everyone else deals with their own, and perfect is utter bullshit, but any kind of analysing is pretty much out of the window for an OCD sufferer, really. It’s too dangerous. Sure it will often times feel… seriously taxing and tiring, etc. But, know what? It’s how it landed and no part of me is angry except for the level of mental resolve that’s all too often necessary with this particular thing. It’s scary. It’s… frustrating to a point of.. “what??! Still?” But it also does give you a million things. But yeah, you really, really gotta go beyond the point of persuasion and literally… break the mould of an outlandishly mind-boggling imbalance to live well with OCD. That’s… impossible to explain but it’s also all good, all… slower paced for a reason. Scribbles-wise? I could take it or leave it, but it definitely gives you a different, let’s call it, branch of the mind to lean in on and create and also, I guess, make you see things pretty damn downright clearly. Or at least as clearly as an OCD sufferer can go.