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Honestly there is a depth to the tragedy of OCD that no movie can ever match for utter replication. The Aviator tries. Falls short. Heck, anyone would fall short. Some things are impossible maybe. How to truly replicate a level of mental pain so… freakishly agonising and simultaneously petrifying that the sufferer is so very mentally caught-up that they can’t even grab enough time to themselves to realise that they are in fact still sick. Still caught-up, even! It is, in my eyes, the most despicable mental disorder out there. I mean it. I can’t know how other illnesses of the brain feel and at what level of pain each individual sufferer goes through. But this need for an OCD sufferer to have to explain their illness to others seems to, at least for me, happen because we actually forget (yeah, that’s right, FORGET) that our brains might have just managed to allay the illness’s havoc for, say, a few hours, few days maybe even if we are ever lucky enough, and fall right back into the illness’s grasp. The level of catastrophising is so profound for the sufferer that the sudden thought, literally, of a normal and calm day will feel outrageously strange. Outrageously… silent, and outrageously… “what am I supposed to do now with all this time?!?” The OCD imbalance is… yeah, I mean, if I can’t seem to explain it, then maybe I don’t need to try it anymore. But here is the thing. The sufferer can so very easily find themselves stuck right back where they started with the whole thing. What does stuck mean for a sufferer of OCD, you might ask. Well, like I said, maybe it’s not worth us sufferer’s trying to describe and that we should spend our precious time instead learning with all our might and resilience to get better for ourselves. As better as we possibly can. People can ask us away, anything they like. They only ever seem to end up using the words interesting or intriguing, though. Maybe anything inexplicable is rather an interesting and intriguing topic, then. But I also do tend to keep forgetting, everyone has their own head to deal with, too. So…