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It’s about going all in, and by all in I mean ALL IN with the OCD. F*ck what it stops and what it entirely gets in the way of, and more often than not. F*ck that it has my little head in a terrible tIzzY much of the time. And f*ck that it truly does get in the way of an amount of stuff that no-one would ever even begin to understand, let alone comprehend. I do though. I get what I have to do, and I get that it’s a headf***, and I get that it’s one of THE most unfortunate mental disorders out there. Not that any of them are nice, mind you. But this is my battle, my path. My thing to allay as best I can, and that I do. Time again. So, for now, to keep on the straight-and-narrow I will do 4 long-runs per week, eat as well as I can, drink loads of water, much less coffee, much less cigarettes, and meditate… as well as I can at any given time, I suppose, ‘cos that shit ain’t the simplest thing in the world to do, it seems. It’s an extreme battle for me to feel like any such day is just… plain-sailing and free, but I am adamant on getting there, always have been.