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In truth, with chronic OCD the sufferer’s mind might actually be going about… a hundred times faster at any given moment amidst utter, let’s call it, meltdown via an OCD takeover. Now, this can obviously have an awful lot of positive effects for a sufferer, if only they weren’t totally frazzled because of the unruly imbalance at the same time. It’s a trade off never, ever worth it whatsoever, really. There are many things which an OCD sufferer will be looking to achieve when living with diagnosed – thank FUUUUUCK!! – OCD. They will want to understand that it IS solely triggered all of it owing to an outlandish imbalance of the brain in the first place. They will also look to try and slowly and, hopefully, surely learn what they are actually like as a person if the OCD isn’t, in fact, running so very rampant and wildly all over the place inside of their head. Those two things and, also, how to somehow bolster the truest parts of yourself – i.e. undisturbed and not too distressed with the OCD imbalance. This is the case because it really does not seem to have any long lasting effect on a sufferer’s actual own personality. Don’t get me wrong here. The personality does absolutely take a hit and, in my instance at least, in a manner that either shuts it down or naturally will, owing to the discombobulating happening, have it fighting for a place at the table, let’s say. It’s a most heartbreakingly painful way, mentally, for the sufferer to have to try and survive. But the disorder’s rampant nature does, in many ways, seem to leave the personality intact, let’s say. Still able to retrieve itself amidst the chaos. Dunno why that is, and honestly that isn’t always good because it’ll be like two parts of your brain are literally having to fight it out to ultimately win out. That’s what OCD does. It takes a sufferer’s mind over from the get go and the amount of outlandish imbalance and illogical lies of the mind which come with it will then depend on how well a sufferer can… tame it. Or not. Different for everyone, but for me that takes outrageous resilience and mental strength and medication too. Outlandish… patience in waiting for your imbalanced brain to somehow release its grip hold over your thought process. It’s… arguably the saddest mental disorder out there. Trapped until you’re no longer trapped by… all of nothing but for that aforementioned imbalance of brain.