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A thing about the ocd, my ocd anyhow. It’s always been there so, yeah, it has certainly played with my mind and intelligence to a crazily inexplainable extent. And that’s like literally having to learn your truest intelligence, personality, etc. and really kinda for the first time ever. With the ocd, you have to only ever trust the process of recovery, or at least sought after recovery. I can’t see all of my mind, not yet anyhow, certainly not entirely, of course. I can’t talk of how proud I am with what I have done. What I can do is build my beleaguered brain back up like a muscle. And it really is one of the finest muscles out there, I truly do feel. But then I need to know that not everything, people’s opinions of me, my experiences with people and things, etc. won’t always be down to the ocd affecting it. I can’t know that, I truly cannot. Well, I kinda can, only me though, but it still won’t do anything to aid my recovery. I need to get better, much more steadfast in my mind and brain. Yeah, as I’ve said ad-nauseam, it’s bloody well petrifying this imbalance of the mind, but fight it I will. Till the end 😃