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There’s this thing about ocd that no non sufferer can know, and this is that… the intrusion of fear and endless imbalance of worry IS even realer than if that particular thing was even REALLY happening to them. And that, well, offsets everything. An endless and pitiful, oft impossible to halt attempt at… figuring out what’s actually wrong when all that is actually wrong, in fact, is that their brain is hugely imbalanced and in THE MOST IMPORTANT AREA. Yeah. The rest – all of the wasted time and overstrained emotions? That’s ALL owing to an imbalance of the brain. Misfiring widely and wildly miscalculations. You don’t get to connect with a realistic and comfortable and certainly far more normal way of thinking until… you become relatively rebalanced 🤷‍♂️ It will never change, the dissected descriptions and explanations because, well… it’s all of it an imbalance and of NO CALL whatsoever on the sufferer’s part. You work unbelievably and unknowingly-to-others hard… and oftentimes just to stay upright and feeling… almost reasonable. It’s their own fight, their own lonely-as-hell struggle. It’s a sufferer’s only priority really in life – to day-to-day retrieve some sort of semblance of balance in their hot-wired brain which they appear to never have had in the first place anyhow. If people did get to witness the travails of a sufferer, only in a physical instance this time, well then… not only would an ocd sufferer be hailed to the point of goddamn… “Just… HOW? How… H-O-W the f*ck did they do all of that?!!” but, also, everyone and their mother would do EVERYTHING to keep them afloat. Everything 😃 But, obviously, the only person who can actually ever get to succeed in keeping them afloat is themselves. You’re talking about… trusting your mind to get back to a place of regular thinking when it is screaming at you and from the pit of its ENTIRE being: “SOMETHING IS WRONG AND SOMETHING CATASTROPHIC IS GOING TO HAPPEN IF YOU DO NOT FIGURE-OUT HOW TO FIX IT RIGHT N-O-O-O-O-O-W!!!!” It cannot, JUST CANNOT, continue to feel as though there are, in fact, a million tabs open in their mind and NEEDING TO BE SORTED OUT… 🤷‍♂️