Honestly, it’s hard to feel proud of yourself or whatever when you are living with OCD. I mean, I know I would get to feel all these real feelings if only I wasn’t constantly being interrupted and much, much more by this imbalance. And it leaves your brain and mind, for that reason, too, stuck in such ungodly mental situations it really is… ugh. It’s like a living nightmare that is unfortunately maxing-out on an every-minute brain being both petrified that it’s all over, whatever that even means and might feel like to a normal-minded person, and trying to calm an illogical and misfiring imbalance of the brain in the first place. I just wish so very much that I could have more of my own mind, and that’s not just a little sidebar of hope for me, it’s an utter necessity, in fact, given the mental fallout of this imbalance for myself. On I go. But, my God, it really can’t be this crazy for a brain, can it?