To be utterly honest the mental pain of ocd is fucking unbearable. Only that, well… you have to bear with it, otherwise… you’re 6-feet-under, I guess. Speaking facts is all I mean there, really. It’s not a nice mental illness at all, though. And I know that none are that particular thing, of course not. However, this particular mental illness is particularly atrocious. I actually cannot believe that there are people all around the world having to deal with this and on different levels of mental pain. At worst? Well, I’ve been there, done that, worn the T-shirt and rewashed it again and again… . At its least intoxicating? Well, I guess that is kinda actually precisely how it is for me right now in many ways. KNOWING not to entertain it even if my brain has entertained it for damn-near all of my life. Certainly ALL OF MY ADULT LIFE, that’s for sure. I am getting there. No doubt about it. If I wasn’t getting there people wouldn’t have been seeing me at all these past few years, I wouldn’t have a girlfriend, etc. Basically, I wouldn’t be functioning upright however horrible that sounds. However, I do fear with ocd that you can’t have both, really: kind of better but not totally better either. It’s too mentally taxing, too unsustainable, too fucking mentally paralysing for the sufferer. An imbalance with such a fucking nauseating bloody vice-grip over the insides of your brain, amidst all of its instrumental mechanisms, that there R-E-A-L-L-Y NEEDS TO BE A PARDON of some kind from it for said sufferer. That’s all this time that I have to say. I’m facing it, but to truly face it down is to… as per usual: not entertain the thoughts that LIGHT-UP YOUR MIND AND BRAIN like a Xmas tree on top of the sun.. atop another sun, let’s say 😜 Crazy-talk? You betcha!! But I’ll get there. I always backed myself on that particular score 😊 Always 😉 It literally needs to be my greatest achievement. The writing can wait in the wings as long as it might take 😊 💃 The prior of the pair was ALWAYS way more important, obviously. Even if the scribbles was, in fact, one helluva byproduct