I really do wish with all of my heart and mind that I could just… turn the OCD off and for so, so many good, maybe even great, people. It’s that unfathomable to even ever expect anyone minus this disorder to understand what it is like for the sufferer. We continue on fighting a complex little bitch of an imbalance that has our minds in a turmoil we have literally ZERO interest in it being in. And all to settle that said imbalance. But what happens if you stir a pot that doesn’t even need stirring in the first place? It boils the **** over again and again, and that’s kinda just akin to how the OCD works its way chronically and toxically through our mindset, etc. These people. Just like me, haven’t ever really gotten to the point of learning of their real thoughts and real personalities. We can explain the illogical nature of our disorder in seconds with regard what a doctor might need to hear and try and understand in attempting to help us out with it in the long-run. In fact, we will have done just that very thing with our friends and loved-ones maybe even thousands of times over. However, aside from the explanation to others to let them know how we are crumbling inside against our utter will of mindset, the rest that occurs in our addled and misfiring minds is utter…. insanity, I have to admit. Insanity in so far as… yeah, our brain is pretty much in so much twisted and illogical anguish and, also, at the same time trying to calm itself – that’s the part where we try and naturally calm a hot-wired mind. Who, ahem, in their right mind wouldn’t do that exact thing to feel better? I cannot make it any clearer just how dangerous it is for an OCD sufferer to be wrongly diagnosed, or even taken to heady task for what their thoughts tend to have become. It’s not what their thoughts are – remember, ZERO choice, that just the very same imbalance did OCD doing its damn best – but rather what their thoughts become and initially became because of the OCD imbalance in the first place. How it feels for the sufferer is all that needs to be aided. Each person’s brain is uniquely different and that’s what needs to be respected the most, maybe, when it comes to helping one such person out with their mental health. Mental diagnosis or not, EVERYONE has a brain to try and deal with, and I salute all of everyone for always trying in that regard. I don’t have interest in judgement because, well, my brain and, therefore, mind has pretty much been pushed into the task of judging or rather analysing a million situations of the mindset of a person over the course of my life so far. Do I want out with the OCD? One million percent. Do I want out of this life? Not. In. A. Million. *******. Years!! Tricky thing is, though, that I do in fact have OCD, always will, unless of course there is suddenly a magical cure. So…. what to do with that misfiring imbalance of mind except to, as I’ve always done ‘til right now, sit with it as best I can manage and handle.