You put everything on “GO!!” You let it all happen as best that it shan’t. And by that, what I mean is this. That the ocd needs to just.. be there. Let it do that, let it do it’s mysteriously effed up thing. Let it try and abuse your brain. Remember. It isn’t actually against you but rather it too is having an incredibly difficult time staying afloat. With a mental illness perspective is everything now. Yes, you have it, and yes it is utterly illogical and disgusting for its paltry worth. But.. you continue on. You repair your brain, your mind, your personality as best that you can possibly manage at doing. You… do the daily things you need to do, or not. Whichever, really. You’ve crawled through something so very OUTRIGHT MENTALLY DISCOMBOBULATING and, for that, you really do need to realise that what you have achieved with the ocd is… phenomenal.