Okay, there are undeniably things that feel impossible to do for me. Things which I still do, but also things which actually have become impossible with the OCD. Working being one such thing. Focusing and concentrating and enjoying what’s happening one thing per time is also extremely difficult. With the OCD the imbalance derails that, makes my distorted mind… get carried away and into chaotic upside-down thinking. Thoughts hot-wired and my being left to, well, sit-it-out most of the time. It’s not that I don’t feel a part of things enough sometimes but that my mind and personality is certainly hugely missing-out, no two ways about it and owing to the fear taking shape inside of my imbalanced brain. When you can’t take all of what’s happening in and in a straight-line of thinking it makes it extremely difficult to trust your feelings from one stage to the next. Like it all feels brand-new again and as if I’m trying all over again and again in trying to allay the imbalance and what it does as best I can. But I gotta let that go too, to just, as I said in the last post, figure-out a way to, well, make it hardwired somehow in my brain and, therefore, mind that I am in fact doing okay and, what is more, that I am perfectly capable 😃