It doesn’t any longer need to be about you in any manner whatsoever. It’s not about you, and the less likely you are to ever even take yourself into account the better you’ll be for it. You’ve honestly moved mental mountains to reach this point in your life. In all truth, you’re a walking, talking miracle, someone who has done the time(mental imprisonment) a billion times over, really. You will be okay- always. Just know, know, KNOW that you were born a calm, collected, relaxed and utterly inquisitive individual. Smile