It won’t matter if you are in a train station with a thousand people about the place, or if you are alone in your toilet of an evening at home. Or even if you are doing a poetry reading exhibition of your scribbles. OCD – the imbalance – will try and hook onto anything it can when it comes to alerting your mind. So you have to live with the imbalance, that’s it. But with this disorder it seems it’s located at such an important and highly reactive part of the brain that, even after settling your mind some way or another and maybe even also managing to realise that it’s all just OCD on loop, the sufferer’s mind can get wiped blank and in a matter of even seconds in terms of what it just tried to inform and teach itself amidst the OCD onslaught. Like that part of the brain is swimming in far too much false anxiety anyway and in the first, second, AND third place really 🥱 that your truest mindset, whatever that might wish to choose for itself to be, is sabotaged and is being smothered time again, over and over… and over and on utter repeat by the OCD, hence said mindset and actual natural thoughts, or as close to that as an OCD sufferer can wish to get, are unable to come to any kind of real and unprovoked fruition – it being made almost impossible for a rational state of mind to surface long enough for us to actually, perhaps, even get to start to learn the things we want to learn. So, yeah, we are pitted with literally trying to reWIRE our brain and back to a place of rational thinking – be it with medication, fitness, meditation, eating well, etc. etc. It’s a mental illness and that’s what what we even need to remind ourselves we are living with from time to time, such as it is that OCD is THAT convincing in its false alarm. Yeah, I reckon I’ve nailed it pretty well, how it works, or doesn’t work for the sufferer, so to speak 😊