OCD

It’s ok to talk about it, the ocd. It’s even probably very important to talk about it. Yeah. You may well indeed be attempting to… hmm, silence a doubting disorder of the mind that perhaps no-one else you know has ever had to take part in. But when you know full well that there is a mental… swallow-hole so very dangerous in your particular instance, that’s when you need to walk and talk and live with it. Now, that can truly become so incredibly.. impossible to live with for any sufferer. They’ll have tried damn near everything to ease the pressure. They will have spent hours and days and weeks and often-times even years trying that very same thing. It’s unnatural, this particular brain disorder. It’s… a trigger in your brain which will drag you back under in a split-second. No-one gets to see that, of course, just how hard it is on a mental level. And you will undeniably lose out on a spectacular amount of experiences in your life. But the harshest part sometimes with it all is talking with friends about it and still being unable to ‘turn it-off’. That’s… an outrageously perverted injustice of the mind, for sure. It’s like a horror game which only you are a solitary part of, a horror game that REALLY shouldn’t exist. At all. It’s… a disorder. A discombobulation of the brain and mind. You… wonder what it’s like minus the ocd, how people react to their own personal experiences. How they handle it. You try and take cues from them because, well, you’ve never really been able to make a habit of said cues and for yourself. The difference between what is happening in front of you on a physical level and what’s actually happening inside of your mind(ocd mind) is so very.. nauseating to have to witness for oneself. That’s… beyond anything I can imagine upon my worst enemy, perhaps. Silence of mind is an extremely difficult and even harsh experience to handle for an ocd sufferer. You’re improving, however you’re also so close to ceasing the flame, let’s say, of bewilder and imbalanced disorder that it’s like trying to hold the fire at bay inside of the Notre Dame. That’s kinda precisely the level of mental fatigue that ocd incurs. That will cripple anyone