I guess we know what to do exactly and then we don’t. As in, our minds know what to do, but our brains don’t. That is exactly the effect of having chronic OCD. It’s a fight to live much more than well with it. It dishevels everything inside of a sufferer’s brain. That’s how it is, and it feels one million percent real, why? Because, obviously the part of a person’s brain that usually accepts things happening with time, one way or the other, and reacts adjustably to it, is totally interfered with and ON. And by on, I mean outrageously ON!! Totally… imbalanced. So, these hot-wired thoughts are as real as a thought wherein a person, for instance, is petrified in their mind because of a hugely fear-inducing occurrence that is happening to them. For the sufferer of OCD that feeling, that… emotion, that… belief system is one hundred percent occurring where your mind should be way more prepared on a chemical level, I suppose, and able to take these things onboard and as they happen and to calculate their fear factor in the first place, etc. So, of course it feels real, because the hot-wired thoughts ARE realer than real feeling-wise for the sufferer. I mean, all thoughts in a person’s head are real so, really, it’s that the OCD sufferer’s level of how REAL a hot-wired thought is is ramped up way, way, way, way, way too many notches. And I guess that level of mental fear and all the time going on inside of someone’s head is eventually gonna just spill over into all sorts of chaos of mind.. So, what we gotta do as sufferers is somehow teach our imbalanced brain to not be imbalanced at all for us, even though it is… imbalanced. I’m not gonna compare how hard this is but what I can do is say that you’re basically waiting for a ball to drop that won’t ever really drop, which means that you kinda have to just learn to live with a certain state of hanging anxiety begging to be enthused, just that you gotta try and TURN THE VOLUME ON IT DOWN. So, yeah. It’s kinda your own bloody theatre show happening inside of your brain all the time. and in many ways I suppose I worked with it or whatever in building my own poetic theatre of mind. What I mean is, I definitely utilised the imbalance as well as I could manage and at any given time 👊 😊