You, I guess, turn it into a theatre show of sorts, the whole thing. Don’t take it too seriously and let it all fall away, too, whilst scribbling as well and as professionally as you can. You did and still do the immeasurable amount of spade work for the OCD to be okay. You take it on, you try and meet it at the middle, even if this isn’t the kinda thing going on that someone should have to be looking to meet anywhere! You meet good friends, you look after their kids, you run, you played soccer for a fair while but that got too tiring with the crowds, that can happen too. You smile through it all. Why the smile? But because… it’s the truest part of you going on in all of this. Let the imbalance sleep now, dear boy ❤️