There’s another thing about ocd. And this is.. as big as the rest of the things, actually. It’s an entirely unseen mental thunderstorm inside of the sufferer’s head. It is… arguably utterly unmatched for its worth, as disgusting as that is. It’s… … life-altering, certainly, and definitely mind-*******. It’s… a lot of lot of things but, above all else, it will take a sufferer to the pit of their being whilst they use their still relatively intact intelligence to stay afloat. There are no medals for that. None whatsoever. But, truth is, to navigate that particular kind of a life deserves a level of respect so very profound that the sufferer should be shown such a thing. Endlessly. They will require it. The sufferer wants for nothing, really, except for a balance of brain. The comparisons? They are… fine and all for an outsider looking in on the illness. For the sufferer it is, of course, utterly different. Their perspective, the sufferer, I mean, is one of… detrimentally mental pain and anguish of thinking. There is physical and mental pain, but mental pain is utterly physical too, of course. However! To truly portray what OCD(chronic OCD) can do to a sufferer, would be to… take someone’s brain and to SHAKE IT ABOUT all the time, all day every day-and to let the sufferer try as they might best handle the hoped for eventual realignment of everything inside. For themselves. For everyone else, too, because whatever the other people see, the sufferer is achieving this state of… awareness and personality of mind MINUS the necessary faculties for them to think in a straight-line, for them to actually be able to make any sort of minutiae decisions. It’s a decidedly fucked-up AND dishevelled cornucopia of paralysing magnitude of mind and brain. That’s what it is. That’s what a sufferer has to deal with attending to attempting to allay whilst also, then.. waiting for their mind AND brain, please God, to eventually get a semblance of a balance so that they can continue on their day and week, etc. in getting to actually make normal-minded choices, whatever the outcome. It’s not even about the outcome. It’s about the mental goddamn mind-locking.
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Recent Poems
- A Nail In The Grave. Called Creation.
- -Bite your lip and bite the dust, please.
- Stifled S*******.
- There’s A History In That Scar. “as we watch them dRAG themselves back.” The Art of silencing a tIcKinGMInDBomB inside.
- Topping The Bill And Failing To Boast About It Anymore
- To Sweep It Under The Rug Is To Simply Say: “that we’ve been trying like WiLdFiRe.”
- Raising the rAreSt Of Stakes
- Sycamore bird AtNite. nocturnal Flight And With Passion Between His Wings
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- Sitting with Silence. Part… … … a million
- Messing with mOmEnTuM: asking their tragedy to understand itself:: kindly, Heck(..) q-u-i-e-t-l-y, “if it can.”
- “Pass the pArCeL And Make It Magnificent, Please.”
- -.attempting to Drown in MindbEnDiNg happiness
- “A Smooth Sea Never Made For A Sailor”
- Smoking Guns And Other Alarmingly TwIstEd-In-D-E-E-P(!!) Metaphors. An Artists Right To Portray… . the breath that held itself together for her
- Letting the imbalance be there. For good or for bad.
- “Buried behind her kindness of eye .”
- GatheringTogether TheirSources ofGoldDustAgain. Treading… Melon
- Discovering Candy
- ‘Lying M€$$iah$’
- All the colours of CreAtiVity. Black and all—.
- State of Mind: DelightFULLYdisENFRANCHISED(..) What an oCd minD dOes By dEsign.. default setting OverPROductiveAndDisrupted .
- When A HardNight became AWideAwake Evening. From Berlin to Belgrade in an Instance.
- Silence
- By a hair’s Breadth.
- ‘Silver-chair Montgomery’
- Bitterly Battered BuTtErFlY? Meet Diving-Bell.
- Mission accomplished – And Now…… “For A Sky-B-L-U-€ Sense+of+Indispensable=RECreation, please” // “She’ll Speak When She’s Spoken too.”
- …..
- If sunset is a rule then please give us the tOols
- “She held her(best… … …)breath for the correct correlation of people beCAUSE… there was a whole other universe inside of her AwrY iMaginAtiOn.”
- Their hearts have been hounding them down again.
- Eye of the Storm: Warmer than an AforeWARNED MASTERPEACE.
- “They Will Not Go Down With This Ship”
- startledIntoAction
- Shook but NOT out
- Makeshift superheroes
- Carrying the noise like a Neanderthal’s Mind+on+fire: “it’s probably NOT what we wanted to HEAR.”
- WaLkInG WiTh wIlDfLoweRs: restoring What’s impossible
- Sitting, STANDING, WaLkInG, c-h-a-t-t-i-n-g: “With Their Survival Techniques At Hand.”
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