I am so very proud of myself and my mind, too, of course. Always have been and always will be. I think I have watched this thing called OCD happen inside of my mind for long enough now and that I really can stretch my, ahem, mind and… think as best and as well as I might like. Sure it’s there and sure it’s… all kinds of crazily complex and endless in many mentally taxing ways for the sufferer but, like I’ve said many, many times before, I’ve always, ALWAYS put in the whole nine yards however difficult is has become, and rest-assured it has, and can, and will, again, becomes scarily difficult even minus any real input on my own behalf. But that is okay. Well, I mean, no it’s not particularly all that okay at all really. In fact it’s THE craziest thing in the world and gets in the way of a helluva lot of normalcy looking to happen inside of my mind. But I do go with it. Endlessly. Trying to meet it somewhere at the middle, perhaps. The dread though, that feeling of utter catastrophe and actually happening inside of my brain and mind at any given moment, what really is all that about?! Anyhow, it’s Saturday and I’ve just dropped the trophy down to Tilda AKA “FIRECRACKER!!” and played with her Lego and she’s really excited about getting to watch The Minecraft Film this evening with Matty. Adore and cherish that pair of people, so real and so… decent, as well as such brilliant friends too. Might be hitting Clon next weekend for The Guitarfest. That’d be pretty brilliant to go to and I know Matt would love the change of scenery. As ever, I am there for them as well as my other friends and family, too, of course. I will do all that I can to be as okay as I possibly can. Sure this OCD is… outlandishly complex for its pained worth, but I know I am worth taking myself through it all like a madman on acid, that JUST how mentally unstable it can make the sufferer’s mind feel. I ain’t no goddamn madman though. In fact, I’m so very fucking far from that single thing and I really do know it. I know it, I guess… even when I really do not feel like I do, and that is the very truest sense of trust I will always need to have in myself, whatever the situation happening around me ❤️